The last of false dreams...

If I really let go, the sh!t would hit the fan or at least that is what my writing has been confessing for the past month.

I didn't know how the month would play out when I started writing. It did however seem to get easier as the days went on to come up with something that could make the sh!t hit the fan.
There are some post that are still in draft mode for one reason or another, but ultimately I'm sure I could talk about what I could do forever. I started to wonder more and more how helpful that was for me though. I am a total believer in dreaming, but when is enough enough? How long should you dream before an action takes place? How long should you dream if you know deep down you are never going to do those things that you are dreaming about?

As I looked back through my May posts, the common theme seemed to be going for the gusto. Going for the gusto may lead you to different people, locations, emotions, and activities, but the foundation of the letting go concept is doing it no matter what.

I think it gets interesting when you add the who, what, when, why, and where... particularly thw why.

Why do people really let go? Are they missing something? Hiding from something? Trying to create or recreate something? Trying to be something? I'm sure this list could get so much longer, but I wonder though how much of what you do when you let go is a loud cry to find yourself... or maybe the opposite. How much of it is a way to lose yourself. Definitely something to think about because we have all said I'm going to do something new or exciting or out of the box or for me at one point or another. Isn't that just like saying I'm going to let go or maybe a more accurste statemnt is... it doesn't matter what is going because I need or at least think I need to do this?

I realize now, some of which I knew before, that the idea of really letting go for me was my way to get back some things that I believe i've lost over the years. Being creative, my spontaneous nature, and freedom from society to name a few.

I do realize that if I really let go, I risk really losing myself while I'm out there looking for whatever.

Hmmm... Catch 22.

Since I'm not letting go... I will continue to be me... I will continue to dream...

However, I will not continue to have false dreams. Those dreams that you know will never come true. Not because it is impossible, but because their not yours.

~Reel Moments~

The Devil Wears Prada

Andrea: But what if this this isn't what I want? I mean, what if I don't want to live the way you live?
Miranda: Oh, don't be ridiculous, Andrea... Everyone wants this. Everyone wants to live like us.